Every once in a while, my mind wanders —venturing into that place not so long ago when I was stuck. A place of confusion where I pondered what had become of my life and how I’d gotten here. How had I meandered without direction for such a long time? A place where I asked the very meaningful, “Would I ever understand why God created ME?”
On an everyday level — was there a higher purpose for my life that I would soon find out through some cosmic light? Well, that light was pretty dim for a very long time. And it wasn’t until I came into the true Light — the knowledge of Christ — that I slowly began to realize that there was indeed a reason for my existence. God created me intentionally and with purpose. And in His mind’s eye, He already had a plan for my life that was in the process of unfolding even as I activated an extensive search.
Yet, I struggled to find my footing. So up and down I went. Questioning. Seeking. Guessing. Waiting. After so many years of the see-saw life, I gave in and made a conscious decision to seek, to listen, and to hear how God was leading me. And the more I gave in to Christ, the more He made sense out of nonsense.
As I looked retrospectively at what life has become — the many roles I’ve had over the years—daughter, sister, wife, mother, aunt, and now cherished grandmother — it’s all too apparent that purpose during those years of endless search was entwined within the very components of my life at the time. Right. Under. My nose.
I also learned that no matter how I sliced and diced competing perspectives about my worth and the rationale behind them, I was exactly where God wanted me to be. I may have taken the scenic route and perhaps more detours than I’d planned, but I made it. I am here now.
When this knowledge took residence in my soul, it became pleasant to the extent that I no longer sought to be defined by some arbitrary descriptor that meant nothing. When I accepted that I am exactly who God created me to be — and that the only life I could live is the one that I am currently living.
Just know without a doubt that an Awesome God has done the same thing for you. He has created you on purpose with purpose. Intentionally. Yes, He meant for you to be here at this time and in this dispensation. And the fact that you are here now means that your purpose awaits you.
And it’s just a matter of time when you, too, will have a greater understanding of the “why me?” Once you move out of your own way, you will discover a uniquely designed path to purpose and fulfillment.
Women in Purpose 